no matter how much i breastfeed on each side she can always drink somemore.
and her 2nd & half pack of pampers are almost finished and its not even 1 month yet.
(-_-")
and she is so "teh"
always wants someone to carry her then she will fall asleep one.
i spent like 3-4 hours this afternoon coaxing her to sleep.
and she wouldnt sleep until i carried her in my arms.
(-_-")
guess she loves her mommy's touch.
=P
BUT HOR.
when my mil bathes her,
she doesnt cry or make noise unless she is hungry.
since day 1 when she came home.
mummy's super baby!
she loves water.
=)
nothing much to update lah.
being confined at home got nothing exciting to update.
BUT.
confinement is ending in 11 days time.
WHEEEEEEEEEEES!!!~
but also abit reluctant for it to end..
1) no more exuses for hubby to do things for me.
2) most of my meals wont be brought up to my room.
3) i have to do most things myself.
4) no excuses to lie in bed & sleep all day.
on the other hand..
1) i am more independent.
2) i dont have to keep drinking different types of soups, like 3-5 bowls everyday.
(its not that i dont like lah, but too much until i scared already.)
3) no more red-date tea everyday.
(thank gawd my gynae told my mom & mil that i should drink water & not only red date tea, if not my ENTIRE confinement i would be forced to drink only red date tea. told you my gynae rocks!!)
4) less ginger dishes!! =)
5) my eating wont be so constricted. (hopefully)
(actually more constricted one leh, but my gynae also told my mil & my mom i can eat ANYTHING. haha. my gynae so double rocks!! so does my mil cos she always closes one eye when i break the "rules")
everytime i tell myself to blog i always find myself too lazy, thinking "i'll do it tomorrow"
then when tomorrow comes the cycles goes.
(-_-")
maintaining a blog is not easy lor.
at least i'm trying!
=D
so this is gonna be a LONG POST.
as i'm gonna write in every single detail of how my baby came into this world.
=)
baby girl has also been keeping me very busy as well..
so sleep deprived!!
i hope when i start work in april she sleeps more at night so i will be able too.
she's my
MILK SUCKING - POOPING MACHINE!!
well, today mil, hubby & i brought baby out to the pediatrician at gleneagles for her first week checkup.
doc says she is doing very well.
she is also getting prettier day by day.
NO MORE CONE HEAD!!
=)
well, you'll know what i mean later as i write on.
today is also exactly a week from the day that
i got admitted to the hospital which was09/02/09
(nice number right?? it was also the last 15th day of CNY.)
so it started off with my regular checkup at the gynae's.
i knew it was going to be my last as well,
as the last appointment he already said i would need to be admitted if baby still doesn't want to come out.
my mom & mil was there to keep me company.
and he did the usual scanning & stuffs.
(the last time i'll ever get to see my baby in my belly!!)
& I ALREADY MISS BEING PREGGY!!!
has the many months i have been pregnant passed so fast already?
=(
i also miss the feeling of my baby girl kicking & having the hiccups in my tummy & laughing with hubby whenever she does it.
now hubby only gan chiong for baby, no more abt me le.
=(
so anyway i got a shock when my gynae said i had to be admitted on that very night cos i was expecting it to be the next day.
after that my mil brought me & my mom out to BOON TONG KEE to eat their famous chicken rice for a good feast!
=D
(i'm so deprived now lor, everyday only can eat fish & pork. aiyo..)
then went home to re-pack hospital stuff & have dinner.
and had SEASEME TANG YUAN to celebrate the last day of CNY.
i love!!!
=P
at 10PM or so, my in-laws & hubby went down to the hospital with me.
& left after i settled down.
my first night alone in the hospital was a lonely one,
as no one was allowed to stay with me as i was in an A2 ward.
(which is a 2 bedder)
at 12AM the nurse inserted a pill into my cervix to soften & dilate it.
so i sat in bed munching biscuits & drinking milo at odd hours as i couldnt sleep.
1) fearful & worried of what was going to happen when i go into labour.
2) my neighbour just gave birth & she had problems feeding her baby.
ZZZ..
at 5AM i was given a light breakfast.
and yeah, sat in bed for about and hour & half,
waiting for the nurses to bring me into the delivery suite.
at about 630AM i was brought to the suite.
hubby came early morning & kept me company.
waited for the my gynae to come & he inserted a fat cannula down my hand & connected it to a drip to induce me.
then he broke my waterbag.
SILENT TEARS LITERALLY RAN DOWN MY FACE!
cos it hurt.
but it was only the BEGINNING.
i started contractions & i held on strong for about 6 hours or so.
refusing epidural despite continous encouragement from my gynae & nurses to do so.
surviving only on gas mask to help reduce the pain.
initially it did help, but gradually the pain got too much to bear.
i inhaled too much gas until my head felt high & my body felt numb until i felt like it was flaoting away.
hubby had 2 tests on that day.
SO SUAY CAN??
so he, my mom & mil took turns to come into the delivery suite to keep me company as only one person is allowed in at a time and hubby rushed up & down from school.
so after crawling though another 2 hours or so,
the nurses came to check how much i was dilating.
only freaking 2CM!!!
and i was already in so much pain!
another 8CM to go.
BUEY TAHAN.
finally took epidural as each dilation was estimated to be an hour.
meaning 8 hours to go.
anyway,
NOBODY TOLD ME THE PROCESS OF TAKING EPIDURAL HURT SO DAMN MUCH!!
the doctor inserted 3 or 4 needles into my spinal cord,
i cant remember as i was already in so much pain.
each needle he inserted felt like hell,
crying out loud each time he inserted it.
lucky i had hubby beside me at that time to hold my hand..
the numbing feeling, the electricuted feeling, my ears were ringing & sometimes the voices i heard sounded as if the person was repeating their words twice.
then i felt my body numbing to the pain again until i felt my body literally burning as if the pain was already to the maximum.
my head was floating due to the excessive use of the gas mask,
but was conscious to what people were saying after awhile.
only that my body was not listening to me.
after awhile the effect wore off,
my gynae was saying it was because i was enduring so much pain before finally taking the epidural that was why i was likedat after it was given to me..
and i no long felt pain as my contractions intensified & gradually the stone-ness wore off.
5CM dilated!
i was so happy.
then my gynae told me that baby was still quite high up despite 5CM dilation.
he told me i needed to do an
IMMEDIATE EMERGENCY C-SECTION.
and i was so frighten & unprepared.
worst of all nobody could come in with me, even hubby.
=(
i was so scared that i was in tears,
as they were preparing me for the operation & getting my mom to sign the form.
my body was shaking very badly due to being cold & the side effect of the epidural.
at the operation theatre my gynae comforted me & slowly i started drifting in and out of sleep.
i was still shaking vigorously and i feeling so cold i just wanted to pull out the epidural connected to my spinal cord.
however i didnt feel a thing as i was cut open becos of the epidural.
but i felt my gynae stretching and pulling my belly.
(sounds gross hor?)
=/
then he told me the reason why baby isnt able to come out was becos my pelvic bone was so small,
that she tried coming out but cannot,
therefore my baby came out with a CONE HEAD,
my little cone head! =)
(-_-")
but it would reduce in size in a few days.
my pelvic bone was literally so small that my gynae even had problems taking her out when performing the c-section.
suddenly i felt like A WEIGHT HAS BEEN LIFTED OFF ME.
and i heard the crying sounds of my baby girl.
i smiled to myself.
after drifting in & out of sleep again.
the nurses asked me if i wanted to see her.
i simply nodded my head, too weak & cold & still shaking to do anything else.
and they placed my girl on my chest as my gynae stitched me up.
the first thoughts that ran through my mind was,
SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL!!
(despite her cone head, but it didnt bother me one bit)
she didnt cry, AT ALL & her big shiny eyes kept staring at me as if saying,
"mummy, im finally here"
=)
and i smiled at her for the first time.
when the nurses took her away she den started crying.
i was so happy because i knew she recognised mummy therefore she didnt cry when she was with me.
=)
when i was finally out of the operation theater,
i was still shaking very badly & felt like ice even with the layers of blanket covering me.
drifted in & out of sleep & finally i was pushed back to my room.
the first 2 people i saw was my fil & my husband.
after drifting in & out of sleep in my own bed this time,
they finally pushed baby to me.
and my in-laws, my mom, hubby, my extended in-law family were there.
EVERYBODY WAS SNATCHING TO CARRY HER & TAKE HER PHOTO LAH!
see what i mean? lol.
(-_-")
and she was crying like crazy becos she was hungry.
my mom took the photo. see! proof! lol.
at about 11PM plus everyone left,
and i mass msg some people to tell them of the good news.
sorry if i didnt reply everyone after that,
as i was very tired & still weak.
after that,
i breast-fed my baby girl for the first time.
=D
she is such a clever girl,
latching & sucking on immediately as if she had done it a million times.
despite still being in pain,
THE PAIN WAS ALL WORTH IT!
i got to experience what a man would never understand & ever feel,
i became a mummy,
& watched in amazement & awe as i watched my little blob i first saw on my first scan grew to become the most beautiful girl in the world.
=)
anyway,
thank you everyone for all the gifts & flowers & hampers & dozen boxes of chicken essences & fish essence & angpaos.
this was what i got the first day. lazy to take photos of the hampers & flowers & other stuffs for the other subsequent days.
thank you for visiting me & baby for family & friends who came down.
=)
to my mom & hubby & my in laws for keeping me company & constantly checking up on me to see if i was doing alright.
our baby girl has finally arrived into this world!!
she is settling well.
she kept us busy on her first night at home!
lucky i have hubby & my mil & my mom & everyone else to look after me & take care of us.
especially when im still hobbling around like an old woman because of the incision.
=)
haha.
when i'm free i'll post up her birth story before details start slipping off my mind.
EH BTW.
no one told me taking epidural hurts so much lor!
*frowns*
remembering the pain gives me shudders.
and seeing how hubby was watching me in pain made my heart hurt too.
but the pain was all worth it when she came out and the nurses placed her on my chest & she stared at me quietly with her 2 big shiny eyes, till the nurses took her away, she started wailing.
I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!
i know she loves mummy too.
=)
anyway,
confinement isnt that fun.
especially after having a c-section, things to eat & do are even more restricted.
& i've already broken some rules.
=/
but at least i get treated like a queen & get to have most of my meals brought up to me in my room.
=P
im also doing partial breastfeeding,
my inital intention was to do total.
but my nipples hurt everytime she suck & subsequently subsides after awhile.
i dread breastfeeding as much as i want to do so.
i have to grit my teeth in agony everytime i feed her.
=(
is that normal???
i hope the pain will eventually go away..
oh yeah.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
so pathetic.
i spent valentine's day at home, not celebrating this special day when other couples are out romancing.
=(
see lor,
become married already then likedat.
ZZZ.
=X
okay,
look forward to my next posts & more pictures of my little princess.
The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
"You are my rib. In the Bible, it was said that God saw that Adam was lonely. During his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib. Only when you find the woman of your life will you no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.
However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems.
Their life became mundane. All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away at their dreams and love for each other.
The couple began to have more quarrels, and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after a quarrel, the girl ran out of the house.
At the opposite side of the road, she shouted,
"You don't love me!"
The boy hated her childishness, and out of impulse retorted,
"Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"
Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while.
He regretted what he said, but words spoken are like thrown away water -- you can never take them back.
With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined on breaking up.
Before she left the house, the girl said,
"If I'm really not your missing rib, then please let me go."
She continued,
"It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."
Five years went by.
He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly.
She had left the country and came back. She had married a foreigner and divorced.
He felt anguished that she never waited.
One day on the road, they happened to bump into each other.
Guy: "How are you?"
Girl: "I'm fine. How about you. Have you found your missing rib?"
Guy: "No."
Girl: "I'll be flying to New York on the next flight. I'll be back in 2 weeks time."
Guy: "Give me a call when you get back. You know my number. Nothing has changed."
With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye.
One week later, he heard of her death.
She had perished in New York -- in the event that shocked the world.
Once again, he lit his cigarette.
And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart.
He finally knew that she was the missing rib that he had so carelessly broken.
Heartburn or pyrosis is a painful and burning sensation in the esophagus, just below the breastbone usually associated with regurgitation of gastric acid.[1] The pain often rises in the chest and may radiate to the neck, throat, or angle of the jaw. Heartburn is also identified as one of the causes of chronic cough, and may even mimic asthma. Despite its name, heartburn actually has nothing to do with the heart. It is so called because of a burning sensation of the breastbone where the heart is located although some heart problems do have a similar sensation to heartburn. Compounding the confusion is the fact that hydrochloric acid from the stomach comes back up the esophagus because of a problem with the cardiac sphincter, a valve which misleadingly contains the word "cardiac," referring to the cardia as part of the stomach and not, as might be thought, to the heart.
strangely however it only started a few weeks ago.
and the problem has become worse over the past few days,
sometimes resulting a few times a day.
anyone got any advice or remedy....??
=/
this feeling sucks.
p.s i very gian to eat bugis street the nasi lemak, but noooooooooo, mummy says i can only go out if there is someone with me. *frowns* i know she means well.
NASI LEMAK!! i want!!!
MEE SIAM, MEE RUBUS, LAKSA w/ LOTS OF HUM & KUEY CHAP!!!
Love is patient, Love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
Always hopes, always perserveres.
LOVE NEVER FAILS.