❤ Saturday, April 18, 2009
i just spent the last 15-20 minutes crying & ranting to hubby about something that has been bothering me for awhile now.
i dont know why it even bothers me in the first place.
like, technically its none of my business.
yet i still bother.
of all things that has to bother me and make me upset it has to be THIS.
i am so weird.
but we're all humans right?
we have a certain limit to our tolerance right?
i just dont understand how some people can be so (sorry to put it in such a crude way) shameless and thick skinned.
i dont understand why your thinking is so immatured and childish.
where is your sense of moral values?
its not like you are a 1 year old kid who does not know the difference between right or wrong.
where is the self respect for others and most of all, yourself?
it does not mean that when people keep quiet and not say anything means it okay.
in my case, apparently NOT.
i know i aint no saint either,
but at least i care about the people around me and how they feel.
how can you even publicize in the first place?!
i just dont understand.
are you not ashamed?
do you not care about what people might say?
and even if you dont, what about the people that love you the most?
imagine their hurt and anger.
i mean if you even had the DECENCY to be DISCREET.
it'll probably bother me ALOT less.
and i may just close both eyes.
maybe even both my ears and my mouth and my hands from typing this right now even if you are being so IGNORANT.
its not like you have not been told.
yet you think its NOTHING WRONG.
you dont understand by your selfish thinking about the people you hurt.
how to influence the younger generation and instilling in them the right values when you yourself is doing it all WRONG.
arent mistakes made so that in the future you wont repeat them right?
i just find it all so ironic.
and yet history may repeat itself. again.
i have so many things to say.
but all i can do it just keep quiet.
who am i to say anything?
everything and anything i say always gets judged and condemned.
it gets tiring sometimes..
and i dont know why i freaking give a damn in the first place.
maybe its because i care about the people that gets hurt.
cos i really dont want the same thing to happen again.
and yet i feel so helpless and useless cos i know i cant do anything.
so i guess i'll just have to continue pretending like i dont know anything.
Written with much love @
11:58 PM
